He Sees...

With eyes wide open..

He sees...

..a child lying down the street under the rain, and he went to his bed at night in comfort...

..a newborn undressed and never felt a comforting touch, while he had it all...

..families finding shelters from cartoon boxes, under the bridge, ..but a deluxe house for his dog..

..a hungry stomach, while he couldn´t finish a plate..

..an eager mind, but never given a chance...

.. a humble heart, but often cheated

..happiness, laughters, joys..but doesn´t last that long...

..war and wars, but never ends...


But worst of all ..

He sees "life", but remains "dead", and never living it...

DISCONNECTED

Have you ever felt like you´re disconnected?..

In an isolated island on the north of the western part of my homecountry,Philippines, I was sitting on a white wooden chair, with my husband beside me, and both overlooking the "krustallos" clear,calm sea..truly fascinating! ..that very moment, I felt like I was disconnected...
There was nothing but beautiful lagoons, numbers of beautiful islet sitting everywhere, various species of fishes and different types of coral lying beneath the clarion water.
It was so amazing staying in that island, there were no worries of the cruel,poluted,distressing world as what we often experience or hear over the news.. How can you be updated on what´s going on with the world if it was even not so possible to access on current events because there was nowhere to find newspapers, even radio or television news..plus a very poor internet access. The only informative concern was the weather forecast, because this for sure would affect the daily plan. There was nothing to worry so much about, but on how to divide the time to enjoy and feel the daily experiences of staying in touch with nature..covering every single minute of the day with different sea and land sports: snorkeling,scuba diving,rock climbing,lagoon tours,deep swimming with "big jacks", fishing, kayaking..or simply swimming and sunbathing or reading by the fascinating view. There was no way to feel anything than excitement and adventure, and the day simply passing unnoticed.
It was for me a total disconnection from the world of our ordinary everydayness, instead a deep connection with nature.

..but, have you really ever felt like you´re disconnected?..

Surely, everybody does in a certain moment of time...from the real world, from others, even from your very self.
As quoted by Robert Fritz, you are disconnected if you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.
You are disconnected from others by being so much focused on yourself. You get disconnected from the real world when you feel so much connected with the internet world..in many different ways,from simple to abstruse...

Unfortunately, this very state is very much known that once experienced, is like a trap in the darkest cave where nobody hears and listens no more..thus, creates discomfort and compassion to the side of the few keen observers. This is so true of course to the unfortunate some who experience disconnection this way..worse more on the darker side.

But how about while walking down the crowded street, by simply putting your headset on and have your ears enjoy your favorite hits..isn´t it that you are disconnected from the exasperating crowd? Or how about a much deeper one..like transforming your bromidic everydayness to an extra-ordinary aqueduct..where you feel disconnected from your acclimatized sunrises and sunsets?..it´s far more favorable kind of disconnection isn´t it?

..in this sense, it´s nice to have an interim disconnection sometimes:-)

WHITE MORNING

..all are nothing but in white..wondrously laying in frozenness..

In the midst of my sweet unconscious state, slowly that I was feeling the sensitivity of my hearing , as I was mildly whispered by the ``zephyr-liked`` swingning of a beat from a fair enough distance..still half asleep, I continued studying this beat I was hearing..until I woke myself up to a total consciousness as I heard of another forceful tone of a wave interruptedly joining the smooth beat I was hearing bit earlier..Fully awake then, I realized that I was hearing of a ``bell-ringing`` from the Church telling the whole village through its exact counted beat that it was now sharply 4 o´clock in the afternoon, Friday, the 21st of November, 2008..a sweet remarkable day for me and my ``Significant Half``.. a celebration of our 365th day of sharing life together..

Always that I love it how the churchbell rings every other hour to let know the village that the ´´big-hand-clock´´ has just ticked another 60-minutes. But not at that very moment when I have heard of such a forceful wave trying to disturb the task of the churchbell..such a powerful explosive blow almost creating an intense bang on the roof..

To conclusively tell this ``seemed-wild`` wave running around, I finally opened the door (I was about, anyhow, to check our mailbox outside).. untill then that I finally fathomed what it was...

..trees bending almost horizontally, leaves cannot anymore help but needed to let flow and shower the streets and every corner like raindrops, all windows in the neighborhood were tightly closed, white smokes appearing almost in every roof in the village blown from most of the houses´ chimneys..I was witnessing a powerful blow but a strong wind wildly covering the whole village, forcing away the smooth breeze which used to share its soft nature all over the town..so intensive that I can even hardly walk straight to reach the mailbox that I felt it strongly pushing against me as I moved every single step. A moment later, a big raindrop fell into my face, then followed such a heavy rain, was ready to reign the night with its freezing gust...
..it was a signal of a horrible weather which was forecasted in almost all weather news channels few days back..

Quickly as I could, I locked the doors and windows, and was warming the house with the heating system at its maximum power..slowly then, I was feeling the warm comfort spreading around..yet never enough to ignore the forceful wind with all the ``bangs`` it was creating outside..still at its wildest and even getting more and more stronger as the night went deeper and deeper..
..trying myself not to be disturbed by such a horrendous of nature, I found myself silently moving ´round the kitchen with the thought of a nice dinner with my precious half..yet every ``tick-tacks`` of my moves and the smokes going round the kitchen never did cover the frightening wave as the strong wind was blowing..

Shortly after seven, it was time to share the table for a wonderful celebration amidst the terrifying nature that the night was bringing. I filled the dining with a hot broccoli soup perfectly fitting the freezing evening..a course of Italian Pasta with meatballs..and a glass of redwine for quite a romance of such a wild thunder of the night. Clock was ticking deeper and deeper, I was hearing sweet laughters from a deep conversation of wonderful memories, of happy cheers celebrating a year of being at each other´s heart..yet a deeper as well that the strong wave was screaming all over the village with an even more powerful noises it naturally was whistling..

It was a real night of such an intense state of feeling both the nature of emotion in an opposite sense at once..how wondeful and lovely the evening that was shared sweetly and romantically, yet how terrifying as well to have been feeling at most point of the night how wild the nature was..even more wild than a lion of ardent thirst to gnaw his prey with all strength. Still deep in feeling the lovely smile within me while softly looking at My Precious´ face lying in silence and comfort next to me, I remember myself slowly falling asleep with the last thought I told myself; I wondered how will the morning be after this night of a so wild, powerful scream of a forceful wave that the blow of nature with heavy rains has brought the village..
..totally, I fell deeply into sleep..

The night had gone, I was feeling myself going back to consciousness..as I opened my eyes, I found them naturally directing to the window..curious as I was, I lift myself from bed and took few steps towards the window..and as I finally had the full view of the morning..I can´t help myself but to deeply astonished by how I was greeted by nature with a so sweet morning. My eyes were running everywhere, to most distance and corners they can..and how wonderful it was to be amazed by how marvelous the morning I was witnessing..atop most trees, gardens, streets, roofs, even cars resting outside most houses..all were nothing but in white..an amazing white of nature in frozenness covering most the surface of the village..
...it was the first snowfall in this part of Europe..
Snows everywhere, beautiful ``whites`` everywhere..,having my first step on the snow outside, I was trying to remember how heavy the night was,and still as fresh as how the morning was that I can remember how ponderous the night back..but what crossed my face was an astounding smile realizing how amazing the nature works to reveal the secrecy of her beauty..

..with a bunch of snow sitting at my palm, happily I was smiling inside,smiling as I recalled the sharing of such a sweet and wonderful celebration joining the then heavy night,just as how lovely and wonderful to feel the beauty of nature in white.. now I understand how wonderfully amazed My Precious Half,.. was sharing me this work of nature..

..I let go of the snow from my palm,..I can´t help but to smile..how amazing the nature as always, after her terrifying state..there followed such a beautiful white morning...
..my very first morning in white..

..It was actually ``our`` first white morning together:-)